Our house sold. Finally.
And I am well into my eighth month of pregnancy.
Which separately would be great things, but put them together and you have one tired, weepy, cranky, achy mama-to-be who feels completely helpless.
I don't like feeling that way.
I have given up trying to nest, because how can one nest when there are boxes everywhere? Add into the fact that we will be homeless (read: living with my parents) for a short while, and that just makes me feel stressed out. I have nothing done for the baby's room.
Let's factor in feeling quite huge and people reminding you all the time just how big you look. While we are at it, I'll bring up the crazy swollen feet and ankles that have forced me to wear slippers (yes...slippers) to work. Well they don't look like slippers, but I know they are. I have been avoiding the TOMS website because it just depresses me.
Oh yes, and one last thing - missing so much work for appointments with bankers, title agencies and doctors and not having enough vacation time to cover it all, so as a result I have had to work late or go in on the weekend just to get my hours in.
I guess you could say that I am stressed to the max.
But on the flip-side of all this, there's A LOT of silver lining to these clouds. And I mean a lot.
Like...
- My best friend and her mom (my second mom!) threw me an amazing baby shower last week. Sweet Baby Gray got a ton of cute little clothes and enough books for me to read to him for years! To add to the excitement, my aunt from New Jersey and my cousin from Texas (and my uncle but he didn't attend the shower) surprised me!! I burst into tears upon seeing them, and I got to spend the next two days with them, and it was AMAZING. I still have not quite recovered emotionally from it! Did I say that it was amazing?? Because it was.
- Mike's sister-in-law flew in from Nevada, and his brother and sister-in-law made a 3.5 hour trek to spend the weekend with us all. We went to a popular coffee shop I used to frequent in college late one evening, and I got my favorite drink - a chocolate milkshake. It was fantastic. Also, they got me so adorable bedding for the nursery so that is one thing off my list I need to get. Love these people, and I am so glad they are in my life!!
- Mike has been amazing! He is always here to give me a hug or offer up a kind text or email when he knows I am feeling like crap. He is the best.
- Mike's parents and my parents came down today and helped me pack and clean. Took a huge load off my shoulders, and I am feeling much less panicky. Much less.
- I found a cute comfy pair of maternity jeans and some other cute clothes at a secondhand maternity store. Thanks to my mom for funding the first part of my maternity wardrobe, I have not had to spend more than a hundred bucks on maternity clothes. Huge blessing.
- Well we sold our house. (It IS a good thing.) As a result, I will be seeing Mike more. I don' worry about him when he is at work, but I do when he is commuting. I cannot wait to spend more time with him. He gets about six weeks of paternity leave. He will be working a very reduced schedule - just a few days a week - and as a result, I will get to spend that much more time with him. We have not spent one entire day together since June. Have I mentioned I cannot wait? Because I can't.
- The doctor promised me a diuretic after the baby is born. Which means I will finally get my calves and ankles back!! Oh how good it will feel again to be able to walk normally and not with pain.
- Sweet Baby Gray is COMING SOON! I cannot wait to meet this cute little baby who has become such a huge part of me. (Literally and figuratively!) I will miss his flips and kicks, but I'll be so glad to hold him on the outside of my body! I can't wait to see Mike as a daddy. He is going to be fantastic, I already know it. I can't wait to introduce Grayson to his great-grandparents, grandparents, aunts and uncles and cousins. :)
So it's all good. This too shall pass. And we'll come out stronger on the other side of it all :)
And I am well into my eighth month of pregnancy.
Which separately would be great things, but put them together and you have one tired, weepy, cranky, achy mama-to-be who feels completely helpless.
I don't like feeling that way.
I have given up trying to nest, because how can one nest when there are boxes everywhere? Add into the fact that we will be homeless (read: living with my parents) for a short while, and that just makes me feel stressed out. I have nothing done for the baby's room.
Let's factor in feeling quite huge and people reminding you all the time just how big you look. While we are at it, I'll bring up the crazy swollen feet and ankles that have forced me to wear slippers (yes...slippers) to work. Well they don't look like slippers, but I know they are. I have been avoiding the TOMS website because it just depresses me.
Oh yes, and one last thing - missing so much work for appointments with bankers, title agencies and doctors and not having enough vacation time to cover it all, so as a result I have had to work late or go in on the weekend just to get my hours in.
I guess you could say that I am stressed to the max.
But on the flip-side of all this, there's A LOT of silver lining to these clouds. And I mean a lot.
Like...
- My best friend and her mom (my second mom!) threw me an amazing baby shower last week. Sweet Baby Gray got a ton of cute little clothes and enough books for me to read to him for years! To add to the excitement, my aunt from New Jersey and my cousin from Texas (and my uncle but he didn't attend the shower) surprised me!! I burst into tears upon seeing them, and I got to spend the next two days with them, and it was AMAZING. I still have not quite recovered emotionally from it! Did I say that it was amazing?? Because it was.
- Mike's sister-in-law flew in from Nevada, and his brother and sister-in-law made a 3.5 hour trek to spend the weekend with us all. We went to a popular coffee shop I used to frequent in college late one evening, and I got my favorite drink - a chocolate milkshake. It was fantastic. Also, they got me so adorable bedding for the nursery so that is one thing off my list I need to get. Love these people, and I am so glad they are in my life!!
- Mike has been amazing! He is always here to give me a hug or offer up a kind text or email when he knows I am feeling like crap. He is the best.
- Mike's parents and my parents came down today and helped me pack and clean. Took a huge load off my shoulders, and I am feeling much less panicky. Much less.
- I found a cute comfy pair of maternity jeans and some other cute clothes at a secondhand maternity store. Thanks to my mom for funding the first part of my maternity wardrobe, I have not had to spend more than a hundred bucks on maternity clothes. Huge blessing.
- Well we sold our house. (It IS a good thing.) As a result, I will be seeing Mike more. I don' worry about him when he is at work, but I do when he is commuting. I cannot wait to spend more time with him. He gets about six weeks of paternity leave. He will be working a very reduced schedule - just a few days a week - and as a result, I will get to spend that much more time with him. We have not spent one entire day together since June. Have I mentioned I cannot wait? Because I can't.
- The doctor promised me a diuretic after the baby is born. Which means I will finally get my calves and ankles back!! Oh how good it will feel again to be able to walk normally and not with pain.
- Sweet Baby Gray is COMING SOON! I cannot wait to meet this cute little baby who has become such a huge part of me. (Literally and figuratively!) I will miss his flips and kicks, but I'll be so glad to hold him on the outside of my body! I can't wait to see Mike as a daddy. He is going to be fantastic, I already know it. I can't wait to introduce Grayson to his great-grandparents, grandparents, aunts and uncles and cousins. :)
So it's all good. This too shall pass. And we'll come out stronger on the other side of it all :)
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