Do the next thing.
Turning 40 in May did something to me. I suppose milestone birthdays have a way of doing that. It made me really look at the impact I am making on my family. It made me question A LOT of different things. And it mostly made me depressed. It made me very anxious about the future. It made me introspective about moving forward and how I live this life. It marked that a full decade has gone by and I have been a stay-at-home mom. For ten years I have been out of the loop on everything. I struggle to think critically and in a problem-solving manner because a lot of the time my brain just doesn't work. Probably sleep deprivation. I have been all-consumed by autism. I have lived and breathed it since the moment we were told autism was a possible diagnosis for why Grayson wasn't talking. My heart broke the day he was diagnosed and then broke again when Easton was diagnosed nearly two years later. I have been - by countless people - told that I shouldn't go back to work because my ...