The trouble in being seen.
Lately I have noticed a theme in the podcasts I have been listening to as a means to block out the noise of my children while I work around the house.
That theme is: the importance of being seen by your people.
I was listening the other day to a podcast about Christmas gifts that make you feel seen and important by your friends and family. Items mentioned were a journal where the husband wrote down a number of things he loved about his wife, a watch that friends all pitched in for, etc.
I actually got so irritated listening to it, that I took out my earbuds and turned the podcast off. Were they bragging? Or just sharing? I don't know.
What does being seen even mean? Is it even a thing? I don't feel seen or important to my people about 99.9% of the time as I clean up awful messes usually including bodily fluids, change a ridiculous amount of diapers and put 10K miles on my car in the last six months because we are going to therapies out of town, and as I lay awake at 3 am, crippled by panic and anxiety.
I don't think I would even get mad about it, if I didn't hear about how important it is all the time to be seen. Is that like getting a participation ribbon for just doing what we are suppose to be doing as parents?
To be clear, I don't think wanting to be appreciated is wrong - I think everyone desires that to some extent. But I have been so indoctrinated lately by this being seen business, that I feel like I need to be rewarded for every hard thing I do. Just being honest.
Am I desiring to be seen by posting this on my blog? Is anything that we do without selfish motivations?
Whew. Sorry to get all deep but just had to air these thoughts out while I had them stewing in my mind.
I will be back soon with my regular blogging programming of cute kids and their crazy antics.
And if you are wondering why I am blogging so much it's because my mom passed down her computer to me - so we finally have a computer that works!! Oh happy day :)
That theme is: the importance of being seen by your people.
I was listening the other day to a podcast about Christmas gifts that make you feel seen and important by your friends and family. Items mentioned were a journal where the husband wrote down a number of things he loved about his wife, a watch that friends all pitched in for, etc.
I actually got so irritated listening to it, that I took out my earbuds and turned the podcast off. Were they bragging? Or just sharing? I don't know.
What does being seen even mean? Is it even a thing? I don't feel seen or important to my people about 99.9% of the time as I clean up awful messes usually including bodily fluids, change a ridiculous amount of diapers and put 10K miles on my car in the last six months because we are going to therapies out of town, and as I lay awake at 3 am, crippled by panic and anxiety.
I don't think I would even get mad about it, if I didn't hear about how important it is all the time to be seen. Is that like getting a participation ribbon for just doing what we are suppose to be doing as parents?
To be clear, I don't think wanting to be appreciated is wrong - I think everyone desires that to some extent. But I have been so indoctrinated lately by this being seen business, that I feel like I need to be rewarded for every hard thing I do. Just being honest.
Am I desiring to be seen by posting this on my blog? Is anything that we do without selfish motivations?
Whew. Sorry to get all deep but just had to air these thoughts out while I had them stewing in my mind.
I will be back soon with my regular blogging programming of cute kids and their crazy antics.
And if you are wondering why I am blogging so much it's because my mom passed down her computer to me - so we finally have a computer that works!! Oh happy day :)
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