Life Lately

For the first time in forever, both boys are napping. AT THE SAME TIME. (Or so it appeared - in reality, Grayson did not nap at all but threw everything out of his crib for the fun of it. I think an early bed time is in order.) While my house needs cleaned and the laundry needs folded, I thought I would take a little bit and put together a blog post about what's been going on in these parts.

Because a lots been going on.

I will just come out and say it. Grayson is in the process of being screened for some developmental delays. I don't really want to add to that specifically because that is his story, and not mine. And I don't want something his mom wrote online to negatively affect him the future. So I will just leave it at that.

Yes, he is a two year old. In many ways he acts like a two year old. But there are still some things that have concerned Mike and me, as well as the specialists we have been working with since he was 18 months old. We know him best as we are his parents.

We have had a lot of doctors appointments and home visits with our local Help Me Grow and Grayson's play group teacher. We have decided to enroll him in a special play therapy program and meet with a speech therapist to further develop his speech. This is all on top of the play group that he attends twice a week

We are doing everything we can possibly do for our son.

But there are days when I just ache because I feel like his amazing qualities are being eclipsed by what he struggles with. I think that is probably something all mothers feel about their kids. This is something I have been battling for some time. It breaks my heart. I want people to truly see what Mike and I see in our son - he is an incredible, loving, active, healthy, happy and beautiful kid.

I have been so upset this week because of the stress of what we are facing that my body responded with a fibro flare - something I haven't had in almost two years! I used to get them all the time when I was working before I had kids, because my job was very stressful. But this is a different type of stress - not stress about getting a project done in a certain timeline - but a stress that is deep-seated and tied into the heart of being a mom. I crashed for three days, and today I am just starting to feel better and my muscles and skin are not aching and burning as much.

Like I said, I am not going to be sharing much about this process because things are hard as it is. Writing this post was somewhat painful. I don't want to re-hash every single detail. I will still continue to post about my Gray on a regular basis because he gives me a lot of material with his silly antics.

Could you please keep us in your prayers? Thanks.


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