2015

I have been thinking long and hard the last week or so about my resolutions for the new year. In the past, I have posted my lofty and somewhat unrealistic goals here on my blog. I've listed the posts below, so go ahead and read through them. I'll wait.

2010
2014

Okay I am laughing right now, because I could have sworn there were more resolutions posts than just two.

I think last year's goals were ones I mostly accomplished. I cleared my schedule, had a baby, became a much better housekeeper if I do say so myself. However I have not been able to come up with a good laundry system. If anyone has any ideas for that, post them in the comments.

Mike and I have discussed our goals for 2015 a few times, and his are very concrete - Read X amount of books, pay off our car loan, etc.etc.

I just have two that are not really goals at all but just managing my life and lifestyle.

- I am fully aware that I am in the hard years. With two kids two and under, I guess that probably goes without saying. These are hard years, yes, but they won't be the only hard years I encounter as my kids grow up. I am fully aware of this too. But I think anyone who has ever been a mother can nod along with me when I say, these ages are tough. Wonderful too, of course, but tough nevertheless. So I guess I just want to be. I was telling my sister-in-law about this today, and she (a fellow mom with a toddler and a baby on the way) said it beautifully with just one word, "Survival." I want to be present with my kids, and I think  I have been doing a pretty good job with that. We play hard most days, and they make me laugh so much. Such great kids! I want to continue what I am doing but be more active, more imaginative, more creative - just present.

- The second is to get my anxiety under control. It is crazy that I am writing about this for the world (or like four people) to see, but maybe it will be a cathartic experience or maybe I will be kicking myself for sharing this. We'll see. I have always struggled with anxiety. FOR YEARS. Over the past 20 years I have gotten a handle on it, but lately as I am dealing with babies and illness and never seeming to feel very well myself, it is rearing it's ugly head. Most days it is not an issue. But my bad days are bad. I have learned the best way to get through them is to keep moving and pray constantly for peace and repeat Scripture about worry. And that does help.

There are other things I want to do this year of course, like learn the entire dance sequence from (500) Days of Summer to Hall and Oates "You Make My Dreams" and lose weight, because of course. I always want to lose weight. Also I want to run a 5k, but who are we kidding, that is probably not ever going to happen. ;) I also want to see my family in Florida and Oklahoma and Pennsylvania and New Jersey. And maybe read an entire book without being interrupted. And kick my Pepsi drinking habit for sure.

What are your resolutions for 2015?


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