Setting the Record Straight

I have taken a little bit of a blogging hiatus. Last night, Mike encouraged me to start writing again - he said he thought if I was open about what was going on in my life, that maybe I could help someone.

But honestly I have been silent for a few reasons - mainly that I don't have much to say, the words just weren't coming to me, and I felt this blog has opened my life up to others to scrutinize and criticize.

I was telling a good friend who also blogs about this over lunch the other day. I feel like if I write anything, then someone feels like they have to respond - usually in person - and tell me how sorry they are that my life is so awful.

My life is not awful.

Do I struggle with a lot of things? Heck yeah. And to be truthful, so do you, dear reader. You know I'm right. Maybe you don't take the path as I do and write it all out for the world to see on a blog, but your struggles are just as important and real as mine.

But I am incredibly blessed too!

Have I mentioned lately that I married to a wonderful man who works very hard to provide for our family, in a job that has cost us friends and allowed more scrutiny into our lives? Where people ask him what he does for a living, and he tells them and is met by uncomfortable silence or a diatribe about how terrible his career field is. It's true. He works long hours and is not around as much as most people's husbands. And that's okay. This is not a lifestyle I married into - rather it is something we both took on about two years ago. There has been a period of adjustment - and each shift bid brings another change for us. This is our life.

Have I mentioned that we have an adorable 17 month old son? Because we do. He is gorgeous and funny and silly and maddening all at the same time. Being his mom is hard. We have good days and bad days just like everyone else. He throws tantrums and has meltdowns just like every other kiddo his age. There is nothing I love more than when he comes to give me a hug or hands me a book to read. He's such a great kid!

Also did you know I am 30 weeks pregnant? Almost 31 actually. I have found this pregnancy has been quite different and considerably more difficult than my pregnancy with Grayson. I have been dealing with sickness up through my third trimester, arrhythmia that is continuing to worsen, a sprained ankle, problems with my ears (just like last pregnancy) and just recently I found out I have gestational diabetes. But I am SO EXCITED to meet Easton. I can't wait! It's not HIS fault that I am having all these problems, and when I meet him, it will become more real to me just how worth it this all is.

So that's my story. This is my life. My awesome, crazy, hard, fun, full-of-challenges life. Wouldn't want it any other way.