Just some thoughts...

- Lately I have been "convicted" (for lack of a better term) on my monthly updates of Grayson. After reading one of the many articles out there on children and social media, I decided that maybe I should stop writing about him in such detail - I would hate to share something that will later mortify him. I won't be a mom who details every little thing about potty training, but I totally could be - I sometimes over share...So I am just going to stop now while I am ahead - when I don't believe anything I have shared up to this point is too too embarrassing or out of the norm for the typical toddler! :)

- I have been taking a much needed Facebook hiatus. I still get online time to time but it's usually after Grayson has gone to bed and Mike is at work. The app is deleted from my phone and has been for some time. I am seriously loving it. I love that I have so much more time to focus on my kiddo now. I am no longer getting annoyed, frustrated or stressed by the weird things other people post. I highly recommend this course of action ;)

- I will still push content to the FB page though - occasional pictures of Gray, a status now and again and of course my blog posts :)


- Today Mike and I went to Cbus, and I shopped for maternity clothes at my favorite store - Clothes Mentor. You can't beat $10 maternity jeans.  I love secondhand stores - and I found some great deals. I went to that store all the time when we lived nearby. And then we went to Qdoba for lunch and Target. It was awesome until I started to have an anxiety attack standing in line at Target...that has been happening to me lately. Either it was the wait in line or the realization that the Essie nail polish I have been coveting costs almost $9 a bottle and I just could not bring myself to spend that type of money on nail polish...either way, it was like a near panic attack. I did some deep breathing exercises and I got through it - but whew! :)


- I have been really struggling with being lonely. I told Mike that I feel like this is the loneliest I have been in years...thank heavens for him and his companionship :) And for my mom and my cousin Jennifer too because they are pretty much the only people I really talk to on a day to day basis anymore. Maybe it's just the weather and everyone is in hibernation mode. For me I am just trying to deal each day with this pregnancy and taking care of Grayson and Mike. Which I think is what everyone is doing right now in their own families, so it's not anyone's fault. It is just the way it is! This too shall pass.









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