Grayson Grayson Grayson

Grayson Grayson Grayson.

The little one is giving his mommy even more gray hair than she already has.

- He has an eczema breakout on his cheeks, chin, neck and now a little on his chest. We went to the doctor last week, and she said to keep applying Baby Aveeno eczema cream - and to bathe him at the most every other day. She promises it will go away. I am just waiting for that to happen. He started to scratch it and draw blood, so I put socks on his hands at night to deter him from scratching. Today finally he has left it alone, and it is starting to heal some and fade away.

- Oh the crying. The fussing. The screaming every time I walk out of the room. The screaming when ever anyone he doesn't know looks at him. I'd say he is dealing with a little stranger danger right now. The other morning I was talking to a neighbor who had a weird laugh, and every time he laughed, Grayson would shriek and cry. Needless to say it was a short conversation. And the neighbor walked away feeling a little sorry for himself, I am afraid. :( I wanted to say, "Don't be offended! He's just a baby. He doesn't know he is hurting your feelings - seriously!"

- As much as it bothers my husband, I have not been eating much simply because I cannot take the time to cook or I will be met with screams. Yes, I let him cry a little - but when he is screaming and sobbing, I just have to tend to him. I can't just let that go. First time mommy mistake? Oh probably. Let's just say years ago, I witnessed a parent allowing their child to scream for what seemed like forever without tending to him - and it was more than I could bear - and I decided then and there I will not be that way. Also, I cope with not eating dinner by looking up amazing pictures of food on my phone while I am feeding Grayson. (I am not BF'ing so this should be a real cause of concern for anyone.)

- He slept wonderfully in his crib three nights ago. It was a dream come true. I knew it wouldn't be that easy. I tried to get him to sleep in his crib a couple of weeks ago, and I didn't think he - or I - was ready. Well I thought we were ready after that one successful night. The last three nights he has gotten up in the middle of the night to scream. Mike stayed up with him the other night, and he finally fell asleep around 2 am.

- Last night I did not fall asleep until 1, and Grayson woke up at 4:30, covered in pee. All the way up to his shoulders. Huh? How?? WHAT?! All things I was thinking as I was changing his jammies and diaper as he was screaming at the top of his lungs with his eyes closed. Then he opened his eyes, took in the horrifying sight of his mommy with crazy hair and the little stinker LAUGHED at me. Giggled and grabbed his feet, and all was right in his world again. I couldn't help but laugh too.

- The eating. He is in the middle of his sixth month growth spurt. Today he had six bottles along with oatmeal, peaches and carrots. That is a lot of bottle washing and food buying - fortunately what he is eating is on the inexpensive side. And heaven knows I don't have the time or the talent or the will really to blend up some homemade baby food.

- Oh the gas. He passes it what seems like constantly. Anti-simethicone (sp?!) drops have become our best friend. It is a LITTLE embarrassing - but as someone told me the other day, "It's okay, Erin. He is young enough to get away with it."

All tongue-in-cheek  commentary aside, the last two weeks have been rough. Really rough. For me. I was very sick with a bad headache Memorial Day weekend, THEN I threw my back out (thank heavens my mom helped me out!) and just today my hip is giving me terrible problems, and I can barely pick him up. :(

This being a mom thing is super hard. I know my friends and family - and complete strangers off the street - told me that it would be hard but I just didn't understand.

Now I do.

Just look at this face though. Isn't he the cutest thing ever? Mike and I are so thankful for him.



But these past two weeks, I have been clinging to the phrase, "This too shall pass." Because it will right? RIGHT?! :)

Gotta go...the baby is having a meltdown!

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