My Secret Shame
The other day I attended a training summit for MOPS International. One of the speakers (can't remember her name off hand) talked about how social media allows us to put what we want to put online. (Something I have addressed on this blog before.)
She encouraged us - as moms at MOPS - to share our stories with each other. Part of me gets nervous about that as there are elements of my story that I don't want to share - things that are painful and private. I don't know that I will ever share that part of my story - but I CAN share one thing about me that you might not know. So I thought I would give this an old college try and test the waters here on my blog, because WHY NOT.
Okay here goes.
My secret shame is my obsession in purchasing wrapping paper.
Okay not really. Yes. I do have an obsession of purchasing wrapping paper. But only the $1 rolls from Target. So many pretty colors and each roll contains SO MUCH paper. What a steal!
Ahem.
I have a TEMPER.
It is bad.
I have been noticing it more and more since I am not working in an office anymore and I don't feel like I need to control it when it is just me. I would certainly never hurt anyone. But I do get mad. Like really really mad. Like slam-a-door-mad, or throw-a-brush-and-shatter-a-mirror-into-a-million-pieces- mad (yes I did that once). I used to yell, but Mike and I have instituted a "no yelling" policy - seriously it is on our family rules sign specifically for me. I follow that rule...most of the time.
Here's an example. Did any of you watch The Office the other night? Does anyone still watch that anymore? They lost me last season - but this season I was back, watching faithfully every week. I was so touched by Jim and Pam's scene at the end of the last episode - I loved how they wove in "the greatest of these is love" from 1st Corinthians.
But that's not the part I want to draw your attention too...Erin, the receptionist, flies off the handle because she lost the paper airplane competition, and she goes on a rampage. She kicks a box of foam peanuts and loses a shoe in it all while her boyfriend tries to calm her down. She tries hard to keep her composure, but she just doesn't keep it together. I asked Mike if she reminded him of me, and he agreed.
Sidenote: But when I asked him what he thought my secret shame was, his answers were "Cookie dough bites? TOMS shoes?" Bless his heart.
Most people don't even know that I deal with this - in fact, I pride myself in keeping pretty cool most of the time even when on the inside I am angry or hurt. However Mike sees it because I tell him everything. It is not a pretty side of me, and he must love me a lot. But now it's not just Mike that is with me...it's Grayson too. I am realizing everyday that Grayson watches me, and I would hate for him to pick up my bad habit of having a temper. So I am working on it.
What's your secret shame?
She encouraged us - as moms at MOPS - to share our stories with each other. Part of me gets nervous about that as there are elements of my story that I don't want to share - things that are painful and private. I don't know that I will ever share that part of my story - but I CAN share one thing about me that you might not know. So I thought I would give this an old college try and test the waters here on my blog, because WHY NOT.
Okay here goes.
My secret shame is my obsession in purchasing wrapping paper.
Okay not really. Yes. I do have an obsession of purchasing wrapping paper. But only the $1 rolls from Target. So many pretty colors and each roll contains SO MUCH paper. What a steal!
Ahem.
I have a TEMPER.
It is bad.
I have been noticing it more and more since I am not working in an office anymore and I don't feel like I need to control it when it is just me. I would certainly never hurt anyone. But I do get mad. Like really really mad. Like slam-a-door-mad, or throw-a-brush-and-shatter-a-mirror-into-a-million-pieces- mad (yes I did that once). I used to yell, but Mike and I have instituted a "no yelling" policy - seriously it is on our family rules sign specifically for me. I follow that rule...most of the time.
Here's an example. Did any of you watch The Office the other night? Does anyone still watch that anymore? They lost me last season - but this season I was back, watching faithfully every week. I was so touched by Jim and Pam's scene at the end of the last episode - I loved how they wove in "the greatest of these is love" from 1st Corinthians.
But that's not the part I want to draw your attention too...Erin, the receptionist, flies off the handle because she lost the paper airplane competition, and she goes on a rampage. She kicks a box of foam peanuts and loses a shoe in it all while her boyfriend tries to calm her down. She tries hard to keep her composure, but she just doesn't keep it together. I asked Mike if she reminded him of me, and he agreed.
Sidenote: But when I asked him what he thought my secret shame was, his answers were "Cookie dough bites? TOMS shoes?" Bless his heart.
Most people don't even know that I deal with this - in fact, I pride myself in keeping pretty cool most of the time even when on the inside I am angry or hurt. However Mike sees it because I tell him everything. It is not a pretty side of me, and he must love me a lot. But now it's not just Mike that is with me...it's Grayson too. I am realizing everyday that Grayson watches me, and I would hate for him to pick up my bad habit of having a temper. So I am working on it.
What's your secret shame?
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