Some early morning thoughts
I can't sleep.
I woke up around 3:50 am, and for the past hour I just laid there, tossing and turning. Well the best I could toss and turn with a little white dog nestled into my armpit. And without trying to wake my dear husband who is in desperate need of some good sleep.
I have about a thousand things running through my head right now. So I decided to just give up on sleep for now and take a turn at my "laptop confessional." (I just made that up. That is pure genius coming from my still-a-bit sleepy mind this morning.) I am upstairs in the loft, my favorite place to write. I should note that my little white dog just joined me upstairs. I could hear her downstairs looking for me, so I called to her and she ran up the steps, leapt on to the couch, sneezed in my face, spun around a couple of times and then curled into a ball. I am jealous of her ability to fall back asleep so quickly!
Today is the day. In about six hours, Mike will be commissioned as a law enforcement officer. In less than 48 hours, he'll be on his first of many shifts. As I am sitting here, trying to absorb all this change coming down the pike, I just have to smile. I am really excited for Mike's graduation ceremony...I think that's why I can't sleep. I can't wait to see him all dressed up in his uniform!
It is hard to believe that about a year ago, I never thought that we would be at this place. Sometimes on my way to work in the morning, I would see a police officer (same branch as what Mike is going into), sitting in a parking lot of a doctor's office near an intersection. Frequently, the officer would be parked next to another car - a silver Focus - with both driver side windows down so they could talk. I saw this so many times, I started to make up stories about these two people. Was it a husband and wife stopping to catch up with each other before they went their separate ways for the day? Was she on her way to work, and he just starting his day shift? I had woven this elaborate story about these two people - even wrote it down a few times! - all while not knowing that Mike and I would be in that position within a year's time.
Someone at work asked me yesterday if I was nervous about Mike's safety on the job. I didn't even hesitate in my answer, "Absolutely not." I heard a seasoned officer's wife once say that she doesn't even think about it - she has to rest in the knowledge that her husband is well-trained. I quickly adopted her outlook. Mike just went through a highly intensive 24-weeks of training. He is confident and capable, responsible and fair. He even won an award for his leadership during training.
I whole-heartedly believe that he is going to do great things.
I have always said that about him - no matter what job he was working at the time.
Today is something that we have prayed about for years now. I wish we had known at this time 3 years ago as we were in a time of transition after Mike lost his job - that this would be the end result. Well maybe not end, because this is just really a beginning for Mike. For both of us :)
I woke up around 3:50 am, and for the past hour I just laid there, tossing and turning. Well the best I could toss and turn with a little white dog nestled into my armpit. And without trying to wake my dear husband who is in desperate need of some good sleep.
I have about a thousand things running through my head right now. So I decided to just give up on sleep for now and take a turn at my "laptop confessional." (I just made that up. That is pure genius coming from my still-a-bit sleepy mind this morning.) I am upstairs in the loft, my favorite place to write. I should note that my little white dog just joined me upstairs. I could hear her downstairs looking for me, so I called to her and she ran up the steps, leapt on to the couch, sneezed in my face, spun around a couple of times and then curled into a ball. I am jealous of her ability to fall back asleep so quickly!
Today is the day. In about six hours, Mike will be commissioned as a law enforcement officer. In less than 48 hours, he'll be on his first of many shifts. As I am sitting here, trying to absorb all this change coming down the pike, I just have to smile. I am really excited for Mike's graduation ceremony...I think that's why I can't sleep. I can't wait to see him all dressed up in his uniform!
It is hard to believe that about a year ago, I never thought that we would be at this place. Sometimes on my way to work in the morning, I would see a police officer (same branch as what Mike is going into), sitting in a parking lot of a doctor's office near an intersection. Frequently, the officer would be parked next to another car - a silver Focus - with both driver side windows down so they could talk. I saw this so many times, I started to make up stories about these two people. Was it a husband and wife stopping to catch up with each other before they went their separate ways for the day? Was she on her way to work, and he just starting his day shift? I had woven this elaborate story about these two people - even wrote it down a few times! - all while not knowing that Mike and I would be in that position within a year's time.
Someone at work asked me yesterday if I was nervous about Mike's safety on the job. I didn't even hesitate in my answer, "Absolutely not." I heard a seasoned officer's wife once say that she doesn't even think about it - she has to rest in the knowledge that her husband is well-trained. I quickly adopted her outlook. Mike just went through a highly intensive 24-weeks of training. He is confident and capable, responsible and fair. He even won an award for his leadership during training.
I whole-heartedly believe that he is going to do great things.
I have always said that about him - no matter what job he was working at the time.
Today is something that we have prayed about for years now. I wish we had known at this time 3 years ago as we were in a time of transition after Mike lost his job - that this would be the end result. Well maybe not end, because this is just really a beginning for Mike. For both of us :)
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